April 30th, 2008 Nichole
Walking out of work today, I was informed by one of the designers that it was 31 cent scoop day at Baskin-Robbins, to which I thought, “Hell yeah, I’m gonna get me some ice cream.” So Mary and I hopped into my little Cavalier (which is in need of some major washing) and sped off to the nearest Baskin-Robbins.
You cannot beat $1.68 for four scoops of ice cream.
Ugh, my phone is ringing. The only people who call my land line are either trying to sell me the Post-Tribune or are attempting to collect a debt from people who don’t live here anymore. Sometimes, when I’m super annoyed, I call them back telling them that John and/or Rachel do not have this phone number anymore. I guess they think it’s some sort of cover-up because I still get phone calls.
Seriously, my name is not Rachel and I highly doubt I sound like some dude named John.
I need to do some grocery shopping. You know you’re pretty bad off when you don’t have any milk or juice. I also need contact solution and tampons.
Yay for being a woman.
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April 29th, 2008 Nichole
I was reading some blogs after dinner when I stumbled across this post at Real Live Lesbian that pretty much encompassed everything I feel about being gay.
Maybe I’m just naive, but I don’t get the whole pride thing. It’s a big display that seems… shallow. Sorry. As a person, I’m not defined by being a lesbian pretty much the same way that I’m not only defined by being tall, blond and an overzealous gamer with a currently level 1 heavy warrior that will totally kick some ass when we FINALLY PLAY. Come on Shaun, Brad and Jose!
I don’t like defining myself by those little bits and pieces. That’s not to say I don’t do it; I do. Just look how often I say I’m a writer. Hell, look at the name of this blog.
I know, I’m horrible. Some may even choose to sling the popular, “You’re in denial,” phrase at me. Yet I will tell you this: if my sexuality comes up in a conversation, I’ll gladly talk about it, but I’m not going to broadcast it to the world. Do my straight friends broadcast their straightness? No. Are they in denial? No.
I don’t understand the people I don’t even know who find the need to come up to me, start conversation and then gently tell me, “Oh by the way, I’m gay.” Do you think that will make me like you more? Less? I know it sounds so cliche but I like people for the sum of all their parts. Specific definitions wrapped up in pretty rainbow-colored colloquial phrases won’t have me liking or hating you more. There are always exceptions to generalized definitions, which is why it’s best to always look at the sum. The total.
The whole person.
I want people to look at me the same way: a grand sum. I want people to say, “Hey, I really like Nichole,” and not “I really like Nichole because she’s a lesbian.”
I’m not trying to pass off as straight. I just go with the flow of being me. People know, even if I don’t say it outright, and personally I think that is best. It means you know me enough to actually know things about me.
I consider myself lucky to have friends like that.
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April 28th, 2008 Nichole
So I got some shiny new widgets for this thing for last.fm and Twitter. If any of you have a Twitter and want someone else to follow, I’m here! However I will preface the offer by saying I’m not guaranteeing my life to be very interesting.
I made a delicious lemon pepper linguine dish tonight for dinner. It was tangy with just a little bit of spice to balance it out. Next time I think I will double the sauce and reduce it further, so it thickens up just a little bit more.
I’ve been addicted to Pandora lately. I love my melodic metal station to bits.
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April 27th, 2008 Nichole
I’m downloading a bunch of fabulous metal music from jamendo.com. If you don’t know of this site, you should. It’s free, legal music from new artists all over the world available for download. There’s some great stuff on here… along with some not-so-great stuff, but you can listen to everything first before you download it.
Nothing beats Spanish metal music. NOTHING!
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April 24th, 2008 Nichole
I emailed her last weekend because… well, I thought I could handle it. I wanted to tell her about my Reverse Bildungsroman project. She hasn’t replied. She always said she’d love to read any new projects I’m doing, but I guess not.
I could feel heartbroken, but I don’t. Her loss… right?
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