July 14th, 2008 Nichole
I was thinking about how people can still mean something to you, can still impact your life in a meaningful way even though you no longer speak to them. People can enter your life, but they can never fully exit.
You still have experiences, memories, things about yourself that will always remind you of other people. And I take comfort in knowing that I leave those same things in others as well.
Even though Tre and I don’t talk, even though I don’t think about her quite as much as I used to, she will always have impacted my life. I hold on to the positive things; I reflect on the negative and find solutions to the things I want to change.
I know I have left an impression on her life as well. Good or bad, I’m not sure. However, there’s something of me that’s inside of her, and it will never go away, even if it’s just a ghost of a memory. It’s still there.
We will always be tied. We have memories. And though I don’t know about her, I also have stories. Wonderful, wonderful stories.
Life is too valuable to spend it trenched in hate. We all feel it, I admit. It’s not an emotion that’s easily reined; it will never go away. However, no one should dwell on it. No one.
No matter how much you were hurt.
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May 29th, 2008 Nichole
Today I was thinking how I used to watch Pokemon with my brother and sister. She would tape it, and then after school we would make a point to all watch it together. I’d get so excited about it, wondering what happened to Ash and company while I was in class. I vaguely remember a couple episodes making me cry. I know the first movie did.
I was in high school.
Stuff like that was fun. I used to love watching TV with my siblings, especially before school. Land of the Lost. Mighty Max. Bionic Six. I even think Sailor Moon was on in the morning for awhile. Sitting there on the couch together with our backpacks at our feet we watched, waiting until the last possible minute before we had to leave. It was our time to bond.
I don’t have cable now, and I think I know another reason why. TV just isn’t the same without my brother and sister around.
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February 2nd, 2008 Nichole
I stumbled across this OC Remix today by Harmony, whose remixes I’ve never heard before. He certainly has a pleasant voice and he remixed the song “Prophecy,” one of my favorite tunes from Secret of Mana. I really like the bongos and his guitar work is very clean and precise. Reminds me somewhat of Ailsean’s acoustic guitar stylings, like in “The Drugstore Sells Sparks!”
In high school a classmate tried to teach me how to play the guitar during an off day in Music Theory class. It hurt my fingers trying to keep them pressed the way they should be on the frets. My nails were too long, and I remember cutting them down to nothing that night (on just the one hand) so I could try again tomorrow.
Sara was an amazing girl; I wish I had gotten to know her more. I passed around an open journal my senior year and had people sign it while bestowing pearls of teenage wisdom. It’s fun to look back on sometimes. We were all so stupid. I remember she wrote me a little something in silver ink, her name decorated in stars.
I wonder what happened to her.
I went to Espress Yourself for a short while, just to get away and write. The same guy was working behind the counter. He seems really interesting, like he’d have some really fun stories to share. It wasn’t very crowded, just me and another girl who was reading on the couch. I hate to disturb people while they’re reading only because I know how aggravated I get when someone pulls me away from a book.
Today is a good day to fly away.
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